So I just realized that I didn't post anything on here yesterday about my character-building experiences here by myself at IWU. So I'll make up for it by posting something right now and tonight... hopefully.
If you know me well, or kinda well, or just a little bit, or at all, or even if you've just had a class with me... ever. Then you know I'm about as picky a perfectionist as there is. Some call this a character flaw... I think I'm one of those people.
When I do something, I HAVE to do it completely right, or I beat myself up for it. And that's not always bad, sometimes it's a very good thing. To a certain extent, it's one of the reasons why I've made it this far. But the problems occur when I beat myself up too much for something that I just have to let go: a typo on a paper or article, an oversight on a multiple choice question on a test, a bad jock talk; accidentally talking over a singer in a song... those last two may have just happened.
Sometimes, one of those things will happen and all I can do is focus on it and obsess over it. The good side of this is that I make for darn sure that it doesn't happen again (at least I try). But occasionally I take it too far and it consumes me, which isn't good, because then I lose sight of other things and more mistakes occur.
It's a pretty vicious circle.
Perfectionism is like a gun. Hear me out on this one. If you don't control it, learn how to use it, and get the proper permits, bad things happen. But if you wisely use it to your advantage, you can blow people away... in the good way.
I don't think my perfectionist ways are going to change anytime, so I have to learn how to make it my own, and figure out ways to make it translate into A's and promotions instead of sleepless nights and gray hairs.
Wish me luck.
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